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Friends? What friends…. I have found myself at a crossroads where I never thought I would be standing…At one point in my life, I had many “friends” who I thought were of the kind that last. Seriously, I didn’t think they all would “last” but I did think that the bulk of them would still be around, that they would be able to withstand the stress of “me” and that they would continue as we were…”close friends”. I mean for the most part, I had vacationed with them, stayed in their homes and they in mine, communicated with them on a regular basis if not by letters or email but face to face. Then an ugly thing happened and my “friends” began to be sifted through many different things that came in to my life that they couldn’t deal with. Loss of a ministry, not by my choosing but by another’s, was a key spot that I found myself on the wrong side, their wrong side not God’s. For a variety of reasons, some did not know where I fit in their lives anymore. THAT was very telling! Apparently, the friendship was based on very tenuous thread of doing and acting the way my “friends” thought I should and, when that was no longer the case, they didn’t know what to do with me. That friendship was based on faith. Another form of “friend” is found in the work place. I bought into the idea that I had friends but those aren’t friends either. If I am not worth spending time with outside of work, then it isn’t anything more than a comfortable socializing while completing a job. Or, when you move out of one department into another, all of a sudden no one knows you!When these break downs occur, one can’t help but wonder if any of it was true! Note – I do have a few very close friends who have stuck with me through many pains and joys. I am grateful for them.

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Invitation

When I invite you into my home for the very first time, I am making myself vulnerable, inviting you to see deeper into me than you ever have before…I am making a statement that a new facet of our relationship … Continue reading

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Soapboxes – not for soap anymore

I have a few soapboxes that I usually climb on in the early morning when I am having coffee with my husband…He would rather experience a caffeine-wake-up but it seems like that is the time when my brain is sparking … Continue reading

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New Year 2015

It’s raining and dark…the pavement outside my window is reflecting the street lights and each headlight of the vehicles that whiz by… Am I alone in being the type of person who takes a few years to get into doing … Continue reading

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How time flies…

I failed right at the start or did I win? I mean, not following up is a failure but never following up is definitely the worst and here I am nudging myself forward to start again…That is what life is … Continue reading

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Friday’s Child

A stirring confusion of joy and riotous color That trickles out of my fisted hand and dissipates  Into the grey of this moment.  I had it all a twinkle ago and this twinkle Crept up on me with a thundering … Continue reading

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I am…

I am said to walk to a different drummer, to be morose and feed off of the sad in life, to possess an awkward shyness, brave enough to do what has to be done, saying things I shouldn’t say, a … Continue reading

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